where do we go from here?


“all I can do is, follow the tracks of my tears…” – alicia keys

We welcome a new year and with every new year, there are choices to be made. Questions to ask- “where do we go from here?” Like the familiar song by ms. alicia, I’m totally okay with starting at following the tracks of my tears!

The misconception is that with every new year there is all shades of awesomeness poking its head at the dawn of a new day/year. Yet for some, crawling into the new year sounded most relevant. It was this for me. The planner, the organizer, the event coordinator… I was barely functioning. Having survived the busiest, most fulfilling year ever, I can’t help but to admit, I. was. spent.

Now, don’t get me wrong! This past year was absolutely amazing. I did so much! I traveled like I never have before, was invited to speak at my first conference and my first women’s retreat. I started a new job, started a new business, launched a church, and started a podcast. None of which I did alone of course, but I did it! I did it. 

I have little regrets about my 2019, but one. My thinking.

“Circumstances trigger thoughts, thoughts cause all of your feelings, feelings drive all of your actions, and actions drive all of your results in your life. You can trace back any result in your life to a thought.”

Brooke Castelo

I committed my first fruits of time and focus of 2020 in a Bible Study, I did all by myself. “I Do Hard Things,” by Havilah Cunnington. Wow. The subtitle reads: “A Bible Study to Break Free of Fear and Pain.” This study was a total game changer. Before even knowing how intentional the study would be on the mind and our thoughts, I already committed to creating new pathways of thought. My word for the year is true; off the verse of Philippians 4:8- “Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.”

You see, in order for me to live my best NOW, I need to trade my fear of the future and the heart tugs that come with it, with what is true. I MUST be able to separate fact from feeling and fully commit to working on the patterns of thought in my life.

#ConfessionSession- Fear has robbed me from more time than I care to admit. I’ve suffered seasonal affective disorder, anxiety is no stranger and panic attacks; I’ve had a couple of those in my life time as well. No one likes to admit hard times for fear of saying too much or appearing weak. I know I am weak! Which is why I must chose (thought!) to allow “my weakness to become a portal for God’s power.” 2 Corinthians 12:11. (thanks Prims for this one!)

When the hard times come as they most certainly will, our every choice makes or breaks us. Hear me! Don’t just scroll on by this like a familiar scripture or quote you’re desensitized to that you stop hearing the message. Listen to me… Our thoughts WILL make or break us. Choose. And if I can give you any advice at all, choose what is TRUE.

What does the Word of God say concerning you? Trust that. What is true about what is happening to you in the moment? Pull from it fact vs feeling and then apply truth. Think about what you’re thinking about- another familiar one. Now, do it!

It isn’t easy creating new pathways of thinking, but it isn’t impossible.

God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of POWER, of LOVE (and all the definitions of love: Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 1 Corinthians 13:4-8) and a SOUND MIND. 2 Timothy 1:7.

All promises; all at our reach. We can and we will! May the tracks of YOUR tears lead you to look up. Look up to the Only who is capable to count the cost all your tears. Look up, then look ahead and if need be, look back only to see how far you’ve come.

Happy 2020- We can do hard things.



One thought on “where do we go from here?

  1. Fuego!! So good!!!!! Thank you for this piece!!! I love your vulnerability and I am CERTAIN this is speaking to more than me in terms of “me too” and knowing we are not alone in these trials. There. Is. HOPE!!! A strength not our own -which is exactly what we need! I love you!


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